Fat shaming, Depression and Suicide…
Today I wanted to do a post explaining why I haven’t been tweeting out as much as I used to and why I haven’t been very talkative, I’ll be honest and say that I am struggling to smile or joke but it will change.
So the reason is, I decided to distance myself from the internet for some very personal reasons and one of those reasons is the fact that a few years ago I was subjected to an influx of fat shaming messages, death threats and was urged to end my life… All because I’m fat.
Five years ago tomorrow (February 5th) one of my closest friends since childhood was also subjected to the same messages, however the outcome for him was far different as he decided to end his life.
When the messages were aimed at me I was already battling depression, anxieties and social phobia and the messages just sat on top and pushed me deeper into a dark place and I ended up having suicidal thoughts, though I never acted on them.
Due to the fact I ignored the urges to inflict harm upon myself I was further abused for being “weak” and “inconsiderate to society”, with most messages telling me I was too fat, I’ll never be happy, nobody will ever love me and that nobody cares about me.
So most years around this time I try to stay away from the internet, usually taking a few days to myself and have my guard up just waiting for it all to blow over.
So in a nutshell, I am safe and sound and still pottering around working away on a few projects and will return very soon.
Thanks for reading, if you made it all the way through I hope you understand.
Until next time, take care and I’ll speak to you all again soon!